Bagaimana aku melalui hari semalam – 29 March 2007

Hampeh !!! i think that’s the best word to describe what i had going through yesterday…..hahahaha……started my horrible day with a stupid event and its a disaster coz i worked like an idiot (it makes me think twice about my existence in KL) ……..and end the event of the day with a broken heart, my crush to that person came to a full stop…..hehehe..i dun know either why it must be happened in the same day and had no relation to that stupid event!!! But its true…..that girl must be his girlfriend!!! “jom balik”, he pelawa….By just visualized walking from the convention centre to suria KLCC with both of them……Nooo..its not a good idea…….gilossss….i rejected his “excellence” proposal and choose to do a shopping instead and managed to spend RM300++……….That’s the only good things happened that day ……..hahahah..

After all…….tomorrow will be another day!!! Yesterday only a history….


Not Normal…

I wish …wooooo, I wish….everything went…..that holiday didn’t help!!!!!! i thought everything went well……started with a heavy rain when we are leaving KK on friday….flight asyik langgar awan dan landing dengan “bagusnya”, it caused me a great headache for a day…..running to Bed’s house on night to complete last minute assignment..managed to get only3 hours sleep …kemas bilik yg berselerak dgn barang2 yg still x unpack…….balas dendam tido…..and went to work today….starting with unexpected greed and smile from that person who i tried so hard not to be face to face with (it makes me smile foolishly and cursed myself for it in the same time)…and the rest of my day will be in doom after restructure meeting…’s only 12 am and i felt like forever.

I’m not praying hard enaugh!!!!

I’m Leaving….

I’m leaving for good…i really hope when i return back…everything is going to be as normal as i wish……..i’m leaving KL….I’m leaving a person i’m suppose to be apart off……i’m leaving peoples who start asking me questions which i dun want to answer…….

3 days……..i wish i can leave everything but not my assignment!!! how can i forgot that i need to submit it a day after i’m coming back from KK …..arggggghhhhhhhhhhh

If you go away……

If you go away on this summer’s day,
Then you might as well take the sun away
All the birds that flew in the summer sky
When our love was new and our hearts were high
When the day was young and the nights were long
And the moon stood still for the night bird’s song
If you go away, if you go away, if you go away.
But if you stay, I’ll make you a day
Like no day has been,
or will be again
We’ll sail on the sun,
we’ll ride on the rain
And talk to the trees and worship the wind
But if you go, I’ll understand
Leave me just enough love to fill up my hand
If you go away, if you go away, if you go away.
If you go, as I know you will
You must tell the world to stop turning
Till you return again, if you ever do,
For what good is love without loving you?
Can I tell you now, as you turn to go
I’ll be dying slowly till the next hello
If you go away, if you go away, if you go away.
But if you stay, I’ll make you a night
Like no night has been, or will be again
I’ll sail on your smile, I’ll ride on your touch
I’ll talk to your eyes that I love so much
But if you go, I won’t cry
Though the good is gone from the word goodbye
If you go away, if you go away, if you go away.
If you go away, as I know you must
There is nothing left in this world to trust
Just an empty room, full of empty space
Like the empty look I see on your face
I’d have been the shadow of your shadow
If you might have kept me by your side
If you go away, if you go away, if you go away..
_Mukhsin OST_

A word from boyfriend…….

Got an email from my penang boyfriend…..hehehe…bertanya kabar….and he didn’t forget to asked soalan “cepu emas” …… and i start mengadu pada dia, how lagging i am on this matter and how hard to find a good man here in KL…… his words comfort me …..

“For your good heart, i am sure u will get someone good. Just wait and pray, and leave things to the one up there….take care my girlfriend”

Take care boyfriend…….i hope your relationship going well….hehehe

Till we meet again and it’s going to be pretty soon……miss ya, darling.

Cinta Pertama Mukhsin …Kisah ringkas yg mendalam ertinya

Yasmin Ahmad cuba membawa satu cerita dalam segmen hidup manusia yang mungkin dilupakan. Cinta pertama, atau sebenarnya cinta monyet (berdasarkan cerita ini). Ramai yang pernah mengalaminya, tapi mungkin tidak pernah mengenangnya.

Pemandangan, cerita berkenaan kehidupan kampung, permainan semasa budak-budak…..mengingatkan kembali zaman semasa kanak-kanak yang amat mengembirakan…….Cerita tanpa dialog yang banyak masih mampu mengungkap maksud yang tersirat.

” Apabila orang bertanyakan tentang cinta pertama, sekurang-kurangnya aku mempunyai ceritaku sendiri. Walau jika diingatkan sekarang, tidak banyak yang mampu diimbas kembali tetapi ia masih mampu mengukir senyuman di bibir”.

WHen YoU FaLL iN lOVe wItH a wroNg PErSoN …..

Have u come across this kind of situation? There is a guy u knew that he definitely do not fit your long list of a guy you dream about. And in the same time there is a guy who 96% fit into your list and when you see him at the first place, you knew he is the one. But your heart seems to betray and making you confuse when it welcomes the wrong person. It seems that you choose a dark and empty road which leads you to nowhere. Leaving a highway with a lot of light splashing on it and you know that when you follow that road, it will lead you to a safe and nice place. Do we need to follow the heart or the mind? Is there any possibility that this wrong person can turn to be right? Does its really true that human tend to make mistake? Or actually choose to make one? Or in our life actually there is no white or black but only mixture of it, grey………